Im still not in the best of moods, im not all that happy, and im still fairly depressed, but i figured I would make an entry.
I added a new poem and than i added some more lyrics. The lyrics are the lyrics to "These Days" by Rascal Flatts. Which I love rascal flatts, so I just figured i would put that song up.
Things are not going great around here, Im worried about Cloudy, I just wish he would contact me or his wife and let us know he's okay. Kevin is mad at me, and is like not answering my emails, and when he's on AIM he leaves and just is pretty much ignoring me, and I have no idea why! All i did was tell him we really needed to talk in person, and now he's not talking to me? And than Things are like even worse with my uncle now, he's got Spinal Menengitis, and they dont know if he's going to live, and if he does live, he may be able come home after xmas and all that. I just hope everything works out the way it's suppose to, with them.. If he passes away, than it's for the best, if he lives to see a few more months or years for that matter, than that's great too, I just hope it all takes the path that it's suppose to, sometime soon. He doesn't even know his own daugther, told the doctors that the doesn't have a doctor, also told them he doesn't drink, mind you he's a severe alcoholic.
Anyways, Im saying my finally goodbye to John, I sent him 2 messages and he didn't say anything to them, so Im just saying goodbye, and deleting him, and cutting my loses, oh well i have feelings for him, but when haven't I had to walk away from someone I've had feelings for, due to the fact that they were fucking lying to me. I really am seriously giving up, i can't deal with this anymore, i can't deal with feeling like this anymore.
Well anyways, i feel like im going to cry again, so IM going to stop writing for now. I'll be back on later tonight more than likely.
Goddess Bless Everyone
4:04 p.m. - 11.27.2002
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